Last night as I was falling asleep I thought of all the different lessons and activities I did when I was a child. Had I stuck to them all these would be the things I can do:
- Play the piano
- Kick ass in Tae Kwan Do
- Speak french fluently
- Play the saxophone
- Be a gymnast
- Swim like Phlepps
- Ride horses and jump
- Be a master yogi
- Speak Italian fluently
It really makes me feel bad looking back on all those things. I struggle always to complete things I have begun and lately I have tried to find the reason why. Or at least find a way to push myself through it and make myself do it! Usually it’s that I get distracted then when I come back and look at the task it just seems like too much so I stop. I sit there thinking I should practice, Book another lesson, do my homework etc. But then I don’t!
At the risk of sounding cliché and annoying I feel like I haven’t really reached my full potential because I didn’t apply myself. What terrifies me really is until now I could not tell you exactly why I have always been like this. Actually that’s not what terrifies me. What terrifies me is that if any of my children start doing the same thing I won’t have an answer about why they are doing it. And I am not sure I will know what to do about it.
I hope my children love something deeply and get devoted to doing it. Anything really is good as long as it’s healthy and useful in some way.
Do you have any suggestions on how to get myself and my children to commit to something and stick to it? Do you have any useful insights as to why I am the way I am?